Bøger af Julian Black

I was screaming Inside but nobody could hear me is a memoir about struggling with life and the world itself and finding life an uphill battle everyday . It's a story about being driven by fear and constantly dreading each day . A story of depression and anxiety and struggling with sexuality in a time when sexuality was becoming more acceptable in society but being petrified to move with the times . A story of Isolation and having no communication with the outside world and feeling very different and Judged and always on edge . A story of feeling suffocated and wanting to scream out from the roof tops that I could not cope with anymore internal pain and fear . I talk about being very brave and turning to my GP for help and from there finding therapy's and Organisations and Individual people and medication that was a life line for me to help me understand my fear's and anxiety's that were overwhelming me to almost the point of a breakdown . A fascinating and somewhat unbelievable story of what driven fear can do to the human body and mind over many years but finding and asking for help and support from anywhere and anybody that could help and support me to understand myself and my fear's of the world .

I woke up at the age of sixteen in my old house in my old bed, sharing a room with my two younger siblings and looking around my old bedroom . My mother's voice shouting up the stairs . To my utter fright and total astonishment I realised I had gone back in time to my youth . A story that tie's in to my memoir ' I was screaming Inside but nobody could hear me, now the world listens ' . An Original story that examines how my life could have been with a paranormal twist guiding me along my liberating new life .

My life was not really a life it was an existence. All I did was work, eat and sleep and I woke up every day being afraid, afraid of of living and afraid of being me.

I was healthy and smart with no addictions that were detrimental to my health and well being . My life was to be turned around 360 degrees and I was to experience a path of life I never ever thought I would all of this because one day a bird flew over me .

This is a story about a young man who lives alone and the lives life of isolation and fear of himself and the world around him. He cannot find peace and contentment in his life something he craves yet fear's at the same time. Out of the blue while cleaning his attic he comes across a Ouija board something he instinctively associates with evil but a board he is fascinated at the same time.Through the Ouija board he contacts "people" and a world he becomes to have to no control over as his body becomes possessed by something or somebody he thinks is a "friend".Very strange and disturbing and paranormal things start happening to the young man as his communication with the Ouija board gets far more intense and he gets taken into a world he has no control over and finds he is helpless to stop his body being over and used to commit evil acts towards his gay community.He has to find a way to save his own soul by coming face to face with evil itself and asking God to save his soul from the very claws of the evil.

A young man grows up into a dysfunctional family and his surroundings and environments growing up have been very unhappy and frightening for him and fear has been a huge part of his life both physically and psychologically. He grows up afraid and scared of his own shadow and fear takes over his mind and body. As he grows older he finds he is attracted to the same sex as him which scares him beyond belief because he has been brought up to understand that homosexuality is not allowed within his community or family. What follows is pure hell for him because he represses his own mind and body from a healthy and happy quality of life to please other people and forgets his own health and well being as a human being with needs.