Domino Effects

"Domino Effects" - these are the detailed challenges in my life that were orchestrated for the sole purpose of making melody. My life seemed chaotic at times, but in reality, things were just as they should be. Those seemingly random events suddenly began to make perfect sense and things fell into place. It was black and white and my days were numbered. Every stage of my being was set up like a "domino." My experiences impregnated me with songs, and I carried them within my soul until I was mature enough to give them birth - "effects." Every chapter has a matching song title. I take you on a journey into my childhood. My young and dumb near miss antics, and secrets never told. I was blessed to be able to look back and see God was with me despite the fact that I had no knowledge of Him. I will be your tour guide through the good times and the bad. Here is an excerpt from the Speak to me chapter: I slowly climbed into the tub. Once I was comfortably seated, I removed the blade from the cardboard protective covering and placed it in my right hand. I lifted my left arm and honed in on the target of my wrist. I took a deep breath. It was so quiet in the bathroom that I could hear the air going in and out of my nostrils. I could hear my heart beating and the quiet ripple in the water from my slight body movements. I come from a family where prayer was not commonplace. I can only remember attending church a few times as an adolescent and never as an adult. That is why I found it totally abnormal to utter these words, "God if this is living, I'd rather be dead. Father, please forgive me for what I am about to do."