Broken

Shattered. Destroyed. Ruined. That's what I did. I took everything that we had, and crushed it all, Destroying Garrett in the process. I can't take it back, Can't fix it, Can't deny it. But yet, I try, I try to drown out the pain with alcohol, Numb the agony with mindless, loveless sex. Nothing works, because I may have ruined us, But I'm the one who's shattered. Like a dream or quite possibly a nightmare, Garrett walked back into my life. And now, I'm torn, Torn between what I want, The man I've always loved, And what I think I deserve. But am I too broken to have the future I've always wanted?